06 August 2017 @ 04:03 pm
current goals  

This week:
— Unlock debit card, try to make sure student loan money will go into it
— Fix/translate those African poems
— Write self-intro for the Esperanto club

Before October:
— Clean room, toss everything
— Clean out comp, sell old comp?
— Get to N1 level in reading Japanese

Keep thinking again that I have to "man up" and just become an adult already. Adults can't shirk all their responsibilities and put off everything for months, they don't promise stuff that has a chance of not happening, they don't spend all their time complaining, etc. Of course I'm speaking about the ideal type of adult, the kind that's in my mind. I have a LOT of stuff I've been putting off for months or years and I REALLY need to just swallow my fear/laziness and do it, though in the past few days I've for some reason felt really tired and sleepy all day... Last night I had a bad eyeache and was super thirsty too, they're probably all connected.... *yawns* when i say tired, i mean if i pause in writing this my eyes literally slide out of focus and i feel like i'm going to drift off to sleep in a few moments. it's summertime so my body's overtaxing itself, what with the bright sunlight and all, i think...

If you put off stuff until you "feel like it" or "feel better", you'll never get it done. Time doesn't actually stop just because you don't feel any time-press. Then suddenly that thing you promised to do, you realize your promise happened 4 months ago, or you haven't replied to that Email in 5 weeks. Sigh. Just have to man up... Clean everything, keep it clean, become an adult. Stop messing up and eating food that makes me feel sick.

 
 
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lusentoj[personal profile] lusentoj on August 8th, 2017 09:05 pm (UTC)
Re: For some reason the UI isn't letting me post these as one comment...
Yeah..........

The problem is I really need to turn my life around!!
sunlit_stone[personal profile] sunlit_stone on August 10th, 2017 03:53 am (UTC)
Re: For some reason the UI isn't letting me post these as one comment...
That's the dream! :P if you manage it let me know how...

Idk, maybe pick, like, one thing, and work on that? Or, idk, how's your sleep?
lusentoj[personal profile] lusentoj on August 10th, 2017 04:54 am (UTC)
I know I can do it. The problem is I can't do it when I live where I do now, because I just do all I can to block out people talking / not murder people and break stuff. As soon as no one's awake / in the house (and I've had a few hours to "calm down" from the stress of the day) I get really productivem so I really think it WILL happen naturally... once I get out of here.

I sleep fine as long as I haven't accidentally eaten any processed foods! If I eat something processed I get insomnia, wake up tons, have trouble falling asleep and/or get nightmares. Now I'm being super strict with myself until I go to Japan too (I want my mood/skin/etc to be the best possible right before going, so I don't arrive and immediately seem like a gross crazy depressed person) so I'm just eating like, sausages and kimchi and bananas and not letting myself try any new potentially-risky foods/brands.
sunlit_stone[personal profile] sunlit_stone on August 10th, 2017 09:19 pm (UTC)
Oh, God. Yeah, I hear you. What's that saying? "Introverts unite--separately, in our own homes"?

The sleep thing is good, though, at least there's that