restless and tired for the past few days. think i ate something i shouldn't've, again... now i'm trying to make kimchi (it'll probably fail, i used the wrong type of cabbage and spices and the "sauce" is more like a watery soup instead of a paste) and fermented squid (hopefully won't fail) for the first time. for some reason i've failed in making nattou two times in a row now too. i'm late on some homework and have been putting off other homework, including my final project.

wrote some gintama fic, my first fic in a long while. i don't know how/why it happened but for some reason i just sat down and wrote without even thinking about it. i'm also working on making a textbook for teaching japanese again, which is just "mostly-translated stories, with grammar notes". again.

the only good thing in life is that my japanese has clearly improved. i can understand what -real, unscripted people are saying- now even if it's not 100%. the main obstacle (other than my wife's parents) lately is that normal text feels way too small, even reading manga on a large computer screen takes effort. so i just get tired and don't want to do anything. i'm really feeling the whole "disabled" thing lately....