so there's this esperanto-teaching japanese yuri dating sim game that came out like last month... and people are already writing fanfic for it. in both japanese and esperanto. they're even using only esperanto that appears in the game! i'm gonna buy it after i get to japan. but anyway, through that i found out that SS is short for "ShouSetsu 小説" (story, fanfic).

lately i can't concentrate so well on cleaning, i keep thinking every two seconds that we're basically already in japan (only 20 days left!) and i'm really happy/excited. every day i'm reminding myself that once we get to japan, like as soon as we get on / off that plane, it's JAPANESE ONLY, no english, no swedish (esperanto's okay though) so i have 20 days left to squeeze out as much english/swedish as i can, right? so i guess that's why i'm talking a lot while i can. it's already clear that the school is going to talk to us in english a lot, at least in the beginning (very unlike what i heard of my stepmom's exchange to japan in the 80-90's where no one at the school knew english apparently).

when i first came to sweden i didn't know any swedish, knew nothing about sweden etc, so i was really quiet and frustrated for a long time just because i couldn't say / understand anything. even now i get frustrated sometimes since i can't say it as coherently/properly/fast as a native swede can. it's not so frustrated that it makes me actually want to improve my swedish, but the thought is still there. like for example, when the embassy called me, when i was speaking i suddenly forgot the word "proof" ("proof that we have money") so i had to pause and then say "proof" in english in the middle of my swedish, which felt really frustrating afterwards not because the guy said anything but because IF I OR HE HADN'T KNOWN ENGLISH THAT WOULDN'T'VE WORKED. aka that was "lazy" of me. in japan they don't know english.

anyway, i responded to the guy who offered to loan me beds asking what exactly "beds" entails so i don't buy stuff i don't need, and it seems the exchange school mailed the other exchange students with a copy of what i had written to them about my eyes, so "everyone knows". which feels really weird as this has never happened before in my life (i've told the teacher, sure, but i've never told the WHOLE CLASS or SCHOOL!"). it's good but it's weird.