been getting a LOT of story ideas lately... i guess this is the years of depression lifting, but it's not just story *ideas*, it's actual mental images and lines of description etc that float into my brain. just like the good ol' days! now i just have to be stricter with my food so i stop getting bad dreams at night. it's just really hard to not eat stuff like convenience store food when you're actually out of the house ALL day (it's hard to pack like, 3 lunches - especially when you didn't know beforehand you were going to take a shift at work that day, etc). it's not just convenience store food, but ex. sometimes at work i end up eating deep-fried food because someone messed up on making it or something so we can't serve it to the customers : / but it really does affect my mood, sleep, etc and i find myself going "why in the hell am i so weak and keep eating this shit!!" so i have to just stop. i mean, the times i get behind on homework or get sick for example — ALWAYS after i've been eating a bit badly for several days or weeks.

HP is going pretty well, i'm getting faster and faster at reading it and now i'm on ch 16-17 of book 1. i realized that since it's an e-book i can literally delete all the super boring parts (like PAGES AND PAGES of harry's stupid quiddich matches where nothing plot-wise is actually happening). it's slowly teaching me a bunch of literary-only grammar i didn't know before too, but i can't think of any examples right now. and J.K Rowling is nooot a good writer. half the book doesn't make any sense (according to character personalities, previous or future plot-points, just plain common sense...), it feels like there's only 10 characters in the whole school, harry's a huge jerk to everyone including the teachers and is a MUCH worse student / has a worse personality than Draco, is MORE prone to breaking the rules than like every other student combined...

for example, it said harry read his textbooks OVER AND OVER before coming to hogwarts and was super excited about magic. then when he arrived, he magically forgot LITERALLY EVERYTHING from ALL of his textbooks and apparently suddenly has zero interest in class or learning, he just magically develops an interest in quiddich and nothing else. he also apparently has zero fear of being sent back to his abusive aunt and uncle's place because he's doing stuff that's going to get him expelled like every single day, on top of not studying he's also accusing teachers of trying to kill students or whatever etc. snape, aside from trying to teach class in general and knowing that harry is one of the students who grew up knowing literally nothing about magic, also knows that evil people will try to kill harry simply because he's harry potter so harry's gotta be better than the average student about magic - so snape tries to get harry to pay attention in class by, say, docking him points when he can't answer a simple question from the textbook. and then suddenly harry thinks snape is super evil and behind absolutely everything that goes wrong in school. i keep reading, but snape hasn't done ANYTHING bad or even weird up until the point where harry already hates him so much that he's insulting him and setting his robes on fire and shit, and who wouldn't be irritated at a brat like that... draco too, he hadn't actually done anything (except said something he learned from his parents) until harry had already been treating him like shit for quite a while, THEN draco starts trying to bully him in retaliation/for attention... harry also treats neville like shit, hermione too in the beginning (and even later, NEVER listens to her or ron like ever)...