well again i'm just reminded,
EAT HEALTHY AND YOUR PROBLEMS DISAPPEAR.

my kanji dictionary has 1433 entries now and reading japanese's an absolute blast — it's so much more fun this way than other similar tools like Rikaichan (pop-up dictionary). it's like every single word is a phrase you understand from context: you know how like we say, i dunno, "ride off into the sunset", they're actually saying this kind of stuff in just two words all the time and that's their NORMAL WORDS FOR THINGS! like "a complete(ly finished) wall" and "a complete trezure-stone (jewel)" are the terms for "perfect". they're just literally saying "wow, your cake's a compete jewel!".

i finished editing those poems, wrote to the guy i'm doing this for apologizing for being so late (i said i'd do these translations... FIVE MONTHS AGO) and asking for clarifications on a bunch of lines i couldn't understand; also wrote my self-introduction to the sendai esperanto club that they want to put in their magazine, which i had been putting off.

i have the motivation to work ALL day. i'm sleeping fine. i even freaking have the motivation to write fanfic; my imagination is really vivid right now. i'm not getting irritated at like, anything.

and why? because i haven't eaten a SINGLE bad thing for 2-3 weeks now and apparently what little bad stuff i must've had in me is all gone now (must've finally left about 2 days ago). haven't tried any new risky foods, even if it means literally only eating sausages, bananas and coconut oil all day because i have nothing else. and i'm just REALLY happy all day! like, how in the world can i be happy living in the situation i do? BUT I AM!!

i've also realized my eyesight gets better after i eat, because if i haven't eaten (ex. i've just woken up, or am hungry) i lean in closer to the computer and font seems smaller. i noticed it because i leave the same windows open all the time and suddenly the next day, what i was reading just fine the night before i feel like i can't read easily. i was wondering why reading real physical books didn't seem like anywhere near as much of a chore lately as it did before, so now i know! it's painful (emotionally-speaking) but there's no way in hell i want THAT to reverse, i dunno what i'm going to do about trying new foods in japan...

also just so you know, the food seems to compound. ex. i can eat a bowlful of pasta (made from beans) and not notice too much; but if i eat ANOTHER bowl the next day, or two days after, it seems to compound the bad effects. so my plan is to as much as possible not try new foods within say 5 days of each other, so i have a higher chance of tolerating it.

ive found out you absolutely don't need to use any kind of oil/fat when frying sausages (at least, ones with intestine casings, maybe fake casings act differently); they won't actually stick to the pan. bacon is the same of course. so that's yet another way to save a small amount of money... if you need frying fat, you can just cook bacon first and use that leftover fat. i've also been trying to reduce dishes by baking stuff in a little foil package, ex. instead of frying sausages in a pan i can just bake them...

today my plan is to finally call the bank and fix my bank card so i can then buy airplane tickets to japan, finally write up that letter so i can start getting handicapped money. yesterday my wife was asking something about if i liked x or y eyeliner/eyeshadow stuff better on her as opposed to her not having anything, and i couldn't tell the difference and she was just like "you're THIS blind? and you're not getting disability money??". i was like, i'm not that blind! which, i still really don't feel like i am! i mean, i CAN see, i'm not totally blind! but how would i know...