09 September 2017 @ 04:42 pm
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cleaned up more stuff, made small gift packages (= tea + patterned napkins) to hand out to special people i meet in japan, now i've started cleaning out my phone of all the "japanese reference sentences" i was taking screenshots of (i have like 300 screenshots and need to grab the sentences and put them on the learning_japanese comm)





It's just free wrapping paper you can get at the grocery store (they change the patterns every so often and there just happened to be a nice-looking one this time).

finished reading my first NON-MANGA book in japanese; it's meant for 4-5 year olds and is about a talking cat who's insulted by everyone for being fat and lazy. runs away from home, makes a cat restaurant that sells food made out of clouds (= daydreams), the restaurant flops because daydreams don't make you full, then he goes back to his owner in the end but at least he loses weight. when i first checked it out months ago it had a bunch of words i didn't know, but by the time (= this week) i finally got around to reading it there were almost no words i didn't know.





Now the bulk of the stuff I have to prepare for the exchange is just all my computer stuff. Sell old broken laptops, fix up the one I'll hopefully take with me, remove all the files from my smartphone and factory-reset it then give it to my wife's sisters, remove all the files from everyone else's computers that I have scattered around and delete my user accounts and move everything to that newly fixed-up laptop...

My wife has a ton of stuff she doesn't want to throw away. By a "ton" I mean it all fits in our room but to me almost all of it is junk: Kid's toys (just toss), old drawings (scan and toss), bits of fabric (just toss), videogame cases (toss the cases, keep the games) etc. She keeps going "but I HAVE tossed a lot of stuff!" and I think you need to stop looking at the amount that you've tossed and start looking at what you have left and where you're going with it. If we move to Japan at the end of our stay, I don't want to take a plane flight back to Sweden PURELY in order to come here and toss boxes of my wife's stuff and then go back to Japan. Or, I don't want to pay like a thousand dollars to mail all of her stuff to us and then have our tiny cramped one-room apartment be full of.... crap like old Barbies. Have maybe 5 toys max: ALL TOYS. Not 5 toys out of each possible category of toys. Crafting stuff (scissors, thread, whatever)? You can rebuy that when you actually need it. I'm trying to get it so all of my belongings are actually able to go with me to Japan: Not leaving ANYTHING here in Sweden. So it's frustrating. Especially frustrating because we already know her parents are going to fill our room with junk while we're gone, they'll probably move around anything we have left and make it so lost we can't find it even if we do come back to get it, and it already happened exactly like that when my wife moved to Iceland so I don't get why she's still thinking she can just leave stuff here with her parents.

When I left the USA I brought 1 backpack, 1 suitcase, possibly 1 cardboard box (hard to remember) and I left 1 cardboard box at my dad's place (which is still there since I've never had the money to visit those guys). The goal is to have even less than that when I go to Japan, because at the time I didn't know stuff like how easy it would be finding household goods (towels etc) in the new country and I had no scanner so I couldn't toss my physical books. But my wife really isn't on board with it.
 
 
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[personal profile] eeeeeeek on September 9th, 2017 08:55 pm (UTC)
You do realize you are going on an exchange in Japan for one semester (a year if you're lucky), correct? You're acting like you are going to move there permanently. I'd think twice before you try to break the law and overstay your legal welcome in Japan.
lusentoj[personal profile] lusentoj on September 9th, 2017 09:25 pm (UTC)
The goal and hope IS to move there permanently, so we don't have to come back to my wife's abusive family's house / the horrific unemployment situation here. We'll be looking for jobs there as soon as we can (my wife: after 2 weeks, me: in my second month) and at the end of our stay will live out the rest of the VISA's remaining months that extend past the actual school year (=3-4 more months) searching for full-time jobs. If we have to come back to Sweden at the end of that it'll probably only be for a few months because my degree should be over in the one semester left after the exchange year (I can do the last semester while still "living" in Japan, because it's online classes) and I'll be applying for full-time jobs in Japan even before the degree is finished, just with the promise that I will in fact get the degree.

(EDIT: Though the goal is to get a full-time job that doesn't need a degree anyway, ex. get work at a place that will in fact hire me full-time later on, it's just that teaching English after I get my degree is the obvious back-up plan)

It's just that my wife has been super pessimistic about all this since day one and continues to be so to this day: which is why she's having so much trouble cleaning. Up until last month, even though I applied for the exchange a whole year ago and got accepted way back in like March, she still believed something would go wrong and we wouldn't even get to go on the exchange. She doesn't actually believe anything good can come to her/us because we've been "trying for so many years and not getting anywhere", "nothing in (her) entire life has ever gone well" etc. I keep telling her, Japan is different, Japan has more jobs than we've seen in years here in Sweden, I've been reading job ads and I know for sure we can get jobs etc etc and she technically knows this but she still can't actually think that it's possible that things will ever work out.

On top of that her whole family is full of hoarders so I'm literally fighting the "family attitude about objects" when I try to get her to clean. Though she's better than most of her relatives, cleaning basically isn't a logical thing in her head. Her parents and sisters literally forced her to keep stuff she WANTED to throw away, for her whole life — if she throws something away they literally dig through the trash, throw a fit about "how could you throw away this thing I like!!" (as if it was they who owned it simply because they had feelings for it) and all that. We're throwing a lot of stuff away in secret to get rid of that but it's still the whole backstory to all this, and part of why I believe keeping stuff here is Not A Good Idea.

Edited 2017-09-09 09:29 pm (UTC)
lusentoj[personal profile] lusentoj on September 9th, 2017 09:26 pm (UTC)
Oh and I don't know where you got the idea about overstaying my legal welcome... I'd never do that!! A student VISA's good for 15 months, you just get a job or apply for a different school by the end of your stay and renew/change your VISA.

EDIT: Whoops I don't mean VISA, I mean the COE that lets you stay in Japan; VISA'S renewable indefinitely as long as the COE's good...

Edited 2017-09-09 09:32 pm (UTC)
lusentoj[personal profile] lusentoj on September 9th, 2017 11:57 pm (UTC)
Oh sorry for three replies but I didn't notice this part until now: I AM going for a full year, the school confirmed it a while ago (the bit about my school claiming I was suddenly only going for half a year was just a mix-up: that's for students starting their exchange the semester after mine, and they happened to be in the same meeting as me). So if I get kicked out halfway it'd only be due to me failing my classes, which is pretty much impossible from the sound of it (I've been talking to a fellow exchange student who started there last semester and they say the classes are run like a joke because they know you're actually learning from real life in Japan and not their classes).